@oddtail There is no way, you gotta be living inside my walls.

I've been feeling like this for a little while now. As someone who's been repressing themselves for years and only very recently admittes that they're trans, I have been pushing myself a lot towards transitioning. I'm in very early stages - I still have a lot to figure out and it still feels hard sometimes. And with life taking over recently, I have found myself having more and more doubts.

What I've been telling myself is that its ok to let life take over. As you have said - yeah I'm very tired (from both life and trans stuff). In the end I know that however I feel right now is just the product of the moment, and not how I really feel.

For anyone reading this in the same situation as me: genderdysphoria.fyi/ . TW: dysphoria obviously. It might hurt but sometimes I'd rather hurt from knowing than from doubts.